What Even?

Yunho has emotional support & Jaejoong may be heading into the army soon?
Ah, I really do like how Yunho has said that he finds solace talking to a stuffed animal.  I'm sure many of us do the same thing.  Sometimes they make the best listeners.  XD  It's going to be a sad day for many fans when Jaejoong will enlist into the army.  But there may be pluses to it too.  Even though he'll have to go through the same rigorous training as average citizens (thanks to a prior scandal by another celeb in the army a year or two ago) it can also be a resting period from his career....and fans.  I'm thinking that this year, quite a few of the second generation Kpop artists will be heading into the army.  That means the rest of SS501, a good chunk of Super Junior, at least T.O.P. of Big Bang, and four out of five members of TVXQ.  But in my opinion (and to save us the agony), I think they all should go in at the same time and get it over with. 

Kpop English fails
So while I was looking around on YouTube, catching up on MVs of groups I haven't been keeping up with, I came across a video of snippets of Kpop songs and their English fails.  It's basically the English in the song that doesn't necessarily make sense, or how some of the words they pronounce sound really different.  Take a look:

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Some of my favorites: "You look like a door", "Nothing sober", "Oh. My. God. I'm. So. Hard.", and "You're not a Batgirl".  Too bad they didn't put "WE GOIN' HARD TO THE COFFEE HOUSE" like I said in my last post.  But even though there are quite a few songs with such 'fail', some Kpop artists do know their English:

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What is this nonsense?

Apparently this has been brewing for a few days, but then exploded.  It is an issue surrounding Kpop group B1A4.  Unfortunately, they got tangled up with the worst fandom to be involved with--Cassiopeia.  Usually when my primary fandom feels any of our members aren't getting the recognition they 'deserve', they tend to call the other fandom/artist/company/whatever out on it.  Things just got more ugly when some BANAs (B1A4 fans) made a wrong move and brought up old scars for both Yunho (poisoned drink) and Jaejoong (adoption issue).  Then Cassies came back and started saying mean things to the B1A4 members via their Twitter accounts  Really, now...what is this nonsense?!  First of all, two wrongs do not make a right.  Second, is it really going to kill HoMin (or JYJ) if they lose once in a while?  I know that what BANAs did was wrong, but if Cassies didn't instigate and just let the group have their win, things wouldn't have turned out the way they did.  Besides, who are Cassies to judge when they've done some pretty crazy things in the past?   How are fans of one group supposed to know what really goes on in another group or their fandom if they're not going to take the time to learn about that group and their fans and how they do things?  This is why I don't pay attention to music charts and rankings as much--if at all.  And my fandom seems to have become more pushier when it comes to trying to vote up HoMin or JYJ on anything these days.  "You're not a true fan if you don't do this."  Nope...I'm still a fan.  I know this also goes on in other fandoms, but since the promotions of 'Something' started, I've seen it get so bad.  And while our members are always greatful for our support, I sometimes wonder if they are also embarrassed by the actions of our fandom.  They've been in the business for 10 years now.  Newer groups are coming out.  It is inevitable that we will have to be on the backburner from time to time.  I'm sure the members know this.  To me, it doesn't mean they're less relavant.  How do you think fans of even older groups feel?  I don't think it's taboo to get into other groups either.  There was something I read on Tumblr a while ago that said: "I may be into alot of groups now, but at the end of the day, I'll always love my original group" (or something like that).  So, Cassiopeia...what do we need to do...?  I know I'm always ranting about this particular fandom, but don't forget that I still consider myself one.  It's just really frustrating when I see multiple fandoms that I like try to tear each other down.  And this doesn't just apply to Kpop.  Jpop and others are also known to do this stuff.  Did I bruise any egos with this?  

 

Now, onto nicer things...

 

Changmin in a minidrama

Well, it's not on KBS, and it's short, but Changmin is going to be in another drama!  He says that he wants to show us how much his acting has improved since 'Paradise Ranch'.  The minidrama is called 'MiMi' and he plays as a webtoon artist.  From what I'm seeing, Changmin is a webtoonist who lost his high school sweetheart 10 years ago.  But, she comes to visit him as a ghost.  So...I guess it's like a ghost love story...like 'Fatal Frame III: The Tormented' in a way.  XD  Let's see if I can handle the kissing scenes like I did for 'Paradise Ranch'. 

 

Well, that's all for now.  Until next time...if I have any readers left.  (^__^)/





Some More ~Myndless~ Ranting!

Tsk, tsk...
You know, it's really sad when fans really just stick to one fandom and not really care for any other.  It's a shame because those fans are missing out on alot of other talented groups.  I mean, you don't have to be full-fledged into them, but at least acknowledge other groups and give them the same respect that you would like your biased group to have.  Really...is that so hard to do?  It really irks me when I read off-the-sly insults from certain fans about other groups whether it be on various sites or on my own Twitter feed.  Heck, they even do it about other fans in their own fandom.  There is that famous saying: "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all".  *sigh*  I really don't know how much I can handle.  I came across one tweet on Twitter about 'elitist' fans, and it was like this:  "#NowadaysPeopleActLike they deserve something cause they're real fans of a celebrity or have been a fan since day1, Like, you want a cookie?"  To me, I find it really accurate.  How about any of you people?  Do you feel this way sometimes too? 

Akgae fans
I'm not sure if any of you have heard of this term, but 'akgae' literally translates to 'evil dog' in Korean.  These fans are only biased to one member in a group and pretty much have a dislike or bash the other members.  Now, I wouldn't confuse them with fans who actually like a whole group but have a bias in it.  ^^;;  When it comes to akgae fans, I haven't really heard much about them.  But it seems that Onew of SHINee had some pretty bad ones a while back.  Do you think you may have akgae fans within your own fandom if you're part of one?     

Somebody finally did it
Ever since the 'Just Dance' games came out, I thought it was a really cool idea!  Not only that, but it also gets you to do exercise and become a snazzy dancer.  Then I--and maybe many others--had a thought: "What if Kpop did something like 'Just Dance'?"  Then, it really happened.  Now you can dance to some of your favorite Kpop numbers!  \(^o^)/  I'm pretty sure that dancing to some of these songs would surely give you a workout....especially if there are any TVXQ songs on there.

Goodbye, Time Out Gelato

This is what the store looks like

Man~!  I'm upset that Time Out Gelato a.k.a. Yoochun's gelato store closed down.  I'm not exactly sure why though.  I really wanted to go there whenever I would make it to Korea and try out some of the flavors.  Alas, that won't be the case.  ;A;  Many fans came out on it's last day to enjoy the gelato one more time.  There were goods that were even being sold at half off.  To me, I don't understand why it'd close.  I thought it'd be doing well because of all the fans that come to visit.  On another note, Junsu's father's pizza shop had closed a good while back, and I was also sad because I wanted to visit that place too.  Ah, well... 

Until next time~!

  

"Not My Fandom, Not My Problem"

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This slogan is slowly becoming one of my least favorite sayings within fandoms...

In the world of fandom, I shall never understand how one can be so deeply rooted in one fandom and totally not care about another one.  I mean it's great you have a bias group/soloist that you follow all the time, but why not at least delve into other artists from time to time?  I also understand that you don't have to like a group, but it doesn't mean to be a jerk about it either.  I see it all on my Twitter list: "Fan of ___________.  Not a fan of *insert genre that fan's favorite artist is a part of*."  For example, I am a fan of TVXQ, but another Kpop fandom is going through a tough time because their group/soloist is having trouble--either work-related or personal.  Me: "Oh, they seem to be having trouble...but whatever.  I'm not a fan of them or Kpop anyway."  SEE HOW RUDE THAT SOUNDS?!!  No compassion whatsoever!

Along with that, these days I feel that some fans of any group can give off this elitist feel. Usually it's fandoms that have been around a longer time that exhert this type of behavior or newbie fans.  Alot of groups are still newbies, so they have to adjust like the bias groups that we follow.  And I think it'd make many fans of the group that is being looked down on really sad.  With me being a 'multi-fan', it pains me when one fandom I am a part of is clashing with another one that I'm a part of.  And if it's not between a seperate fandom, there can also be fans of a certain bias fighting with another fan of a different bias over who is better.  Unfortunately, I've seen quite a bit of all this behavior from a good chunk of fandoms that belong (or used to belong) to SM.  Most notably, Cassiopeia--since that is what my Twitter list is mainly comprised of--and it's upsetting.  :(  I remember a time where we were such a nice fandom that helped out other ones when needed.  I think that is why we were respected--not because we were the largest or if our group was one of the best.  Thus in my personal opinon, I can't say that we're one of the best fandoms anymore...at least the international side isn't.  But don't think it's just limited to Kpop.  As I said before, this kind of behavior can be seen in any type of fandom. 

I guess the dynamics of fandom are changing, or is it just me?

As extra...

  Found it on Tumblr, and I think it's accurate...

Anyway, peace out. 

Storms and Ghosts

So yesterday, the east/northeastern coast of the U.S. was rocked by a hurricane-turned-superstorm named Sandy.  She was basically a large storm that merged with a winter storm coming from the west and some arctic air from the north.  She affected quite a few states that were more inland as well.  I'm sure it was quite a catastrophic scene.  While I hoped that noone would be hurt from this storm, I couldn't help but feel a little sad.  Why?  Because all over my Twitter list, I saw messages like "Our hearts go out to the victims in the path of this hurricane" and things like that.  I did too...but I couldn't help feeling that Sandy and the northeast got so much more coverage than us down here in the south when we dealt with Isaac.  Granted that the northeast isn't as structurally built for hurricanes as the south is, but gee wiz.  My phone was blowing up with constant updates about Sandy (I follow various hurricane Twitter accounts) and it was to the point where my battery was going to die.  However, I don't recall it being like that when we were going through Isaac.  :/  Sometimes I wonder if we're a little forgotten down here.  In terms of the fandom, I do remember tweeting about what was happening to me during the Isaac...but not many tweeted back about my status.  I just chalked it up to the media not talking about him much.  But with Sandy...they even talked about it on international news stations.  I say this because I have a few Korean channels that I watch, so that is where my guess comes from.  OTL  A major Twitter account that I follow for TVXQ fans even tweeted out for the northeast coast.  *sigh*  I know I sound really salty and should not even have this attitude, but if you live down here for a good while and experience a gulf hurricane, then you'll know what I mean about media coverage when it comes to southern storms.  People down here are still quite upset (and/or joking) about Mississippi being called "a 'landmass' between New Orleans and Alabama" or being called "refugees".  .___.  Other than that, I don't want it to sound like I don't care about what happened up there if that's what you're thiking.  I'm not that kind of person, ya know.  :x  Anway, I believe the worst of it is over for the northeast, so now it is cleanup time which is never fun.  Hopefully things will get back to normal for you all soon.  From the gulf coast to the east/northeast coast...still wishing everyone affected the best~!

ANYHOO....

Fanciful Thoughts (◡ ‿ ◡ ✿)

First off, I'd like to say that yesterday I started playing 'Final Fantasy Dissidia' and 'Final Fantasy Dissidia 012' again after a while of not doing so, and ended up playing well into the wee hours of today.  ^^  The game is quite fun, but it takes a long time to level up the characters.  Ah...Final Fantasy (the whole series) is really great.  I recommend any of the games to anyone who has never played them.  I'm sure you'll get hooked.  >:D  Of course, the ones near and dear to me are Final Fantasy VII and Final Fantasy X.  The reason for FFVII is because it was the first one I played by myself, and FFX because it was the first one we got.  Each game has a great storyline and epic music.  I think the downside for the games (especially newbie players) is the complex battle systems for some of them. 

*sigh*  It seems to be that time of year...the dreaded voting for the Mnet Asian Music Awards is underway.  That means that many fans will try to promote others to voting for certain groups/artists.  Sometimes they'll make multiple accounts to override the rule of one vote per day and make 'alliances' with other fanbases to secure certain votes.  -___-  I've seen this all happen last year.  Fans will also get really upset if you choose not to vote.  My apologies if I decide not to.  Many of the artists I'd vote for probably wouldn't be what most fans I associate with would want me to vote for anyway.  It's funny--it feels like with this voting thing, it's more about doing anything to get their artist to be #1 rather than really appreciating the reason why they were nominated for it.  More or less, it's like a popularity contest rather than a music awards.  Two prime examples would be TVXQ vs. SuJu and B.A.P. vs. EXO.  I'll talk more on the B.A.P. vs. EXO.  To me, I think B.A.P. should get the award for 'best newcomer--male group' because looking at all they've done in the past 9 months since their debut, I'd say it's a great feat.  Yeah, EXO is good too, but I haven't heard much in their singing department since their last promotion.  Of course, I'm not following either group as bad as I do some of the older genearations of Kpop, so you don't have to take my word for it. 

Fuu...I'm Such An Awful Fan... ┐(￣ー￣)┌

Just a few moments ago, a teaser picture was released of a blindfolded Yunho with a yellow backdrop.  My Twitter list (at least the Cassie part of it) went crazy in spazzing.  Yunho and Changmin are going to be making a 'comeback' very soon--excuse me, a Korean comeback.  Much like last time when they came back for "Keep Your Head Down", I'm probably one of the few that isn't really as hyped about it.  Maybe it still has to do with this whole lawsuit looming over everyone's head.  Maybe it has to do with me wanting to see them comeback as five more than anything else.  I'm not sure why, but this feeling comes up whenever it's HoMin's comeback.  Please do remember that it doesn't mean that I hate them, it's more like I'm just not able to move on and adjust to how things are with the members like other fans have.  I'd have to say also that I'm starting to not be too earger for comebacks anymore (though I don't think I ever really was).  Hey...it's not like they actually went anywhere, right?  They were just doing other things.  And that is all good with me.  ^o^  So when fans were saying that they 'missed' seeing such-and-such, I was all like: "But they haven't gone anywhere.  ^^;;"  Now, I would understand if they were on hiatus for many months not doing anything.   

There are many, many, MANY things I'd like to say to alot of fans (even to a few people I know, but that's a different matter altogether).  Of course, I can never say anything because I'd probably get flamed/bashed for it.  And I do want to remain good freinds with many people. .__.  I might be able to hold my own in a debate, but at the same time I think I'm not so good at it.  Sometimes I'll take things to heart or I'll probably keep going until I get the last word in.  Though they say that silence is the best comeback, so if it comes to that, I'll try to bite my tongue.  Hey, it's kind of like taking both sides into consideration and trying to be the better person, you know? 

Well, I seemed to have gone off topic on that last part, but somehow I feel like it still fits.  Anyhoo, to sum things up, I'm not too excited for HoMin's comeback as others are, comebacks are just 'eh' to me, and there is alot I'd want to say, but I'd rather hold my tongue in order to maintain peace.  But despite all this, if you're still willing to call me a friend or fellow fan, then I thank you very much.  :3

Peace out~!  

Another Rant Post

Gosh!  It's been SO LONG since I've posted here in my blog.  So much has gone on too!  But I think I'll just touch on maybe three subjects that have been weighing on me...which may become rants.  Yay!  Another rant post!  >__>  I better post a fun one soon or I may bore many of you.  Anyway, our first topic is:

1. "Oppa, Gangnam Style"~!
Yes, 'Gangnam Style' has become a very big hit here in the U.S.  So much so that many celebs love it, he's got a contract under the same company as Beiber, and he's even been invited on various shows.  Heck, his song even plays on the radio--and not just in the Northeast or the West, but in the South too.  I'm really happy that PSY is doing so well in the U.S.  Though it is a little bittersweet since other Jpop/Kpop artists have tried to break into the market and failed.  But I do want PSY to succeed becuase it would then open a way for other Asian artists to become more known in the U.S. (and concerts could finally be held in my area).  I think the reason because his song became so huge is because it doesn't give off that 'westernized' feel that other artists did when coming over here.  Also, the U.S. seems to like funny things, so he fits the bill to some degree.  I'd have to say that our population is quite picky with songs too.  :/  I'm not quite sure why some people don't really like it because honestly, the beat sounds like it could be used in any song found here.  And it's just as wacky as some of the other MVs found around.  But I think that people aren't used to hearing Korean. 

2. "Changmin, your hair!"
As of yesterday, pictures came out of Changmin and Yunho with a different hairdo.  Yunho's looked nice, but Changmin's has stirred some complaints within the fandom.  It's a short, mushroom-like cut that is dyed a light brown.  Granted, it's probably not one of the styles I like, I'm not going to complain about it either.  I'll just have to get used to seeing him with short hair again.  I think another reason why I'm okay with it might be because Junnosuke is also sporting a hairstyle like that.  It's just that his bangs are a little longer and it's two-tone colored (blonde on top and dark brown/black underneath).  To me, that just means another 'connection' between my Kpop and Jpop biases!  ^o^

3. "_____ doesn't sound that great compared to ______"
"I'm not going to that concert because _______ isn't gonna be there", "Only _______ is going to get my money", "__________'s songs aren't all that great as compared to ________".  I've actually heard (more like read) these things on Twitter.  Most of the time it's the Cassie part of my list that tends to say this about other groups, but I've also seen it out of other fandoms I follow.  Even on Tumblr's 'confession' accounts (be it Jpop, Kpop, etc.) there can be harsh criticism coming from some fans.  It's a little sad because I tend to be a fan of one group and the other group being criticized.  Case and point: TVXQ and KAT-TUN.  One time I was spamming about KAT-TUN, and then someone told me that not alot of their songs were that great and that one of the reasons they didn't listen to them much was that they didn't compare to TVXQ's voices.  Another time someone told me that I shouldn't be a fan of Changmin because I liked Junnosuke.  One person even said that Maaya Sakamoto's songs weren't all that great.  .___.  I know it's personal preference, but still....  I suppose what I'm trying to get at is try not to be an 'elitist' and criticize the mess out of another group or individual members--especially if you don't delve into their music so often.  :/  Ya know what I mean? 

Well....here's an update post.  Until next time~!  Peace out. 

When Kpop News Portals Hand You Rumors...

So, today (thanks to Twitter) the TVXQ fandom is buzzing with chatter.  Why?  An article has come out saying that there is a possibility that the group might get back together because Jaejoong, Yoochun, and Junsu's names have been noticed on certain profile boards for TVXQ on certain sites.  This comes just a few days before another court date.  Most of the comments from netizens and fans alike most likely pass it off as a rumor.  As for me, I'll take this with the grain of salt, but I'm also excited about it.  To be honest I'm ready to be done with this lawsuit.  It's been over 3 years already, and fans are really getting tired of it.  I'm sure the members involved as well as the company--and everyone else affected by it--is ready for it all to end.  I know that I've said before that until the members themselves say something about it, that's when I would believe.  But so far, they haven't really said anything.  OTL

I suppose what is sad is that most fans are probably more comfortable with how things are now.  Some don't want the to reunite because they say the members are doing great.  Others just don't really expect anything to change any time soon.  It feels like fans these days are quite pessimistic.  I would love it for them to reunite again (outside of SM if possible).  Things these past 3 years have been truly a crazy roller coaster ride in my fangirl life.  I haven't been really watching videos of the current things the members have been doing.  And to be honest...hearing 'remade' songs like 'Somebody to Love' or performing old ones like 'Rising Sun' weren't so appealing to me.  It just didn't feel right.  Sometimes I wondered if it ever affected HoMin when they sang those songs.  Of course, that's not to say that I don't listen to their other songs.  .__. 

One thing that does worry me though is that their reputation might suffer if they come back together.  I hope that the members themselves have no 'bad blood' among each other also.  But I suppose we'd have to see how things would pan out.  And if the situation where they have to disband happens again, I hope that it's due to a better situation (like getting too old for entertainment or contracts expiring normally). 

Yet again, I type another entry that is more of a rant, huh?  Well, the bottom line is that though I should take this rumor with a grain of salt, I'm feeling rathe optimistic about it as well.  Ultimately, we'll have to see what will happen.  Peace out. 

Once Again, Korea...

First of all, I don't claim for any of this to be factual, just straight up opinions.  It just feels that time and time again, I'm noticing that Korea gets slammed for being racist more frequently.  The most recent thing being when a group called B2ST (Beast) was in New York filming for a music video.  They put up a last-minute ad asking for only Caucasian models.  Unfortunately, that was a really wrong move on their part.  But I wouldn't blame the group itself.  The director of the music video should be the one to blame.  I read comments stating things like: "Why does this group even have fans" and "This is why I don't like Kpop.  It's racist".  I'm probably on the wrong side about this and I will admit that how some Koreans are about other races is really wrong, but I do feel bad that Korea gets called out on this more and more often now.  There are other countries that do this as well I'm sure.  Dare I say that Jpop may have a similar problem?   Because all I see in majority of their music videos whenever they need a foreigner are Caucasians as well.  Would you not think that they may be doing the same thing that Kpop may do?  The only difference is that Jpop may be more discreet with it, but I'm sure they had problems in the past as well. 

I will admit to this: there are times where I do sit and wonder how my biases would view me and such (especially Changmin or Junnosuke) because I am of a dark complexion.  .__.  But despite all wonky things Korea throws out there, I still enjoy the things I see from that country.  I'm not going to let these things deterr me from listening to Kpop or wanting to visit that country, and I don't think it should let others as well.  I feel the same way for Japan too.  If anything, it's like I always say:  Korea is now beginning to become noticed by the world more and more, and all this attention (i.e.- more tourists) is something they have to adjust to.  Not only that, I think it would be best if the idea of having pale or lighter skin as the "ideal" skin-type just disappears.

All in all, I do want Korea to be more mindful of what they're saying and doing now that they've got an international audience, but at the same time wouldn't it be best to guide them in how to deal with it rather than choke-slam them?  :/ 

Maybe I'm just too chill about this.  Anyway, peace out.   

       

Oh, The Pains Of Being A 'Multi-Fan'

It's funny how I hear some fans say that they just don't understand how one person can be a fan of so many groups.*silently raises hand* Well...I'm one. (.__.)/  If you didn't know already, I'm a fan of many, many, MANY groups.  Well, I guess 'fan' wouldn't be the very best word, but there are many groups that I like.  I may not listen to all of them on a daily basis and I tend to keep up with my biased groups more *coughTVXQandKAT-TUNcough* but if you want to talk to me about another group, I'll try my best to converse with you about them.  However, there seems to be a tiny problem that I'm beginnig to notice...

Jpop and Kpop fans don't really get along well with each other...

And this frustrates me.  .___.  How am I supposed to talk to both general fandoms?  You see, I have a tendency to talk about the other genre to each fandom.  I know it's probably not very smart of me, but I just want to 'promote' the genre to the opposite fandom.  For example, I'll use TVXQ and KAT-TUN--more specifically, my biases from both groups.  I really do like them, and I'll talk about them to anyone and everyone.  XD  BUT!!!  If I happen to say that Changmin and Junnosuke look alike--er--similar at some glances...I'll get told that they don't.  I've also noticed that when I make my own Tumblr posts, the ones that get the most responses tend to be the individual ones rather than the ones I do that have both of them in there (if that makes sense).  I have to apologize, but I seem to see it more from other Junnosuke fans.  :x  But either side will also sometimes say bad things about the other, and that doesn't sit well with me as they are my top oppa and ichiban.  Are they not worthy to be complimented for looking alike even in the slightest?  Is it insulting or something?  I don't think it's a bad thing as they're very attractive.  I could add to it that they both look like Taiwanese singer/actor, Jerry Yan.  :o  And of course their personalities are very different.  I've grown to love each of their quirks--even though some of the things they may do or say may not be my cup of tea.  Just imagine how it would be if I had said that Donghae of Super Junior and Kame of KAT-TUN looked similar (which they kind of do)?  OTL

Many fandoms of groups that I like tend to bash each other...

I don't really claim to be an elitist fan of any group (maybe more of a 'knowledgeable' fan), but how some are sounding makes them think like they're better than others and that certain fans should 'fall in line' or something.  It's hard to even say that one group's style is similar to another without having a fan tell you off.  I'll admit, I'll say something along the lines of that if TVXQ is mentioned--as I did get upset when a group called Code V sang 'Love in the Ice'--but I don't think it's right to nit-pick so harshly especially if it was just for fun.  I guess that would fall under what I had stated in the above paragraph when it comes to your favorite celebrities looking alike at first glance.    

*sigh*  Fandom is such a scary place sometimes.  Like in my previous entry, I've considered leaving it all.  But then I'd get quite lonely not being able to spazz with all the nice people I've met.  So, I'll just let you all know that: 1) I like both Jpop and Kpop (and some Mandopop) at pretty much an equal level, 2) Changmin and Junnosuke are my top biases, and I really like to point out similarities they have (though it's becoming less and less the more I look at them), and 3) at least try not to diss either genre/group.  It's as simple as that. 

Hm...this seemed to have turned into a rant post...mainly about my biases (when is it not?).  For this I apologize if I sounded rough, but I've had similar thoughts about this ever since I eased back into the Jpop fandom and it sort of peaked when I read an insult about Changmin.  -_-  As a side-note I'd like to say that maybe the reason for the tension has to do with the bad blood between Japan and S. Korea due to their history with each other?  In any case, I should post a more light-hearted entry soon.  Peace out~! 

Random Complaints!

Okay, so I was going through this Kpop/TVXQ website that is now on idefinate hiatus because I was looking for this article:  [NEWS] Round 1: Tohoshinki vs. KAT-TUN  But in order to do that, I had to scroll through so many other posts...most of them were about the lawsuit.  It was pretty rough to scroll past those articles because it brought up all the feelings I had during that time.  It reminded me that we're still somewhat going through this lawsuit.  Some of the articles talked about how Jaejoong, Yoochun, and Junsu would like to finish the dispute quickly and that all of them would like to remain as a group...even if they have to switch agencies or that all members still want to remain together no matter what.  It made me wonder if they still have those feelings. 

Most fans are okay with how things are currently with the five members.  This is not to say that their current achievements are bad or anything, but I really want them back together as five.  Maybe I'm putting more stress on them by seeming like the type of fan that doesn't care about their music and just wants them together again (outside of SM).  Some say: "What if they don't want to be together again?"  I know I wouldn't like to see them depressed if they don't want to, but would they really be upset if they got back together?  It makes me kind of sad because upon thinking about it...I've only been a fan of them pre-lawsuit for only about 2 years out of the 5 since I've gotten to know them. 

I also feel a little upset because of a certain 'kpopconfession' I came across on Tumblr.  It was talking about JYJ/HoMin (something about calling the TVXQ "HoMin").  It got alot of comments, most being very negative....and bashing OT5 fans by saying that they're the most delusional and annoying.  .___.  I don't really know what to think anymore.  I've been considering easing my way out of the fandom and just supporting them in my own awkward way.  But, I've come to meet some very nice people, and I don't want to lose contact with them.  ^^;; 

I'm not sure where I was going with this, but I just wanted to put it out here.  I really do miss them together as five, and sometimes seeing things the way they are now in both the members and the fandom frustrates me.  Regardless, I still do find ways to enjoy it, and fear not...I still do love the members.

 

    

Fangirl Moodswings

This is an entry I had from my LiveJournal...

I feel a bit intimidated when I step into a group that has long been established in the entertainment world and has so many fans that are 'well-seasoned' in terms of knowlege of a member I like. I usually think: "Wow...they know alot about him. They'd make a better pair than I would with him." It was a little like that in the beginning for me with Changmin in TVXQ, but it seems a bit worse for Junnosuke in KAT-TUN since I'm so late in entering the fandom. :o I hope none of you take it the wrong way of course. I really do admire the loyalty in some of you fans because it must be so easy to stick with just one person (which I seem to have temporarily lost sight with). I only say that last part because loyalty/faithfulness is one of the big traits of a Leo. Maybe that is why my brain is fried whenever I look at the pics on my Windows 7 desktop thingy because it's got both Changmin and Junnosuke pics to shuffle through.

I see fans who are strictly Changmin and ones who are strictly Junnosuke biased. And ones that like both already seem to have chosen who they'd most likely stick with. So, where does that leave me? I still think that I'd most likely choose Changmin, but then I don't want to lose Junnosuke either. Then I think: "Is this really something to be fretting over?" XD I also don't want to be considered a 'fake' fan or a disappointment to one fandom or the other for liking both of these guys very much. It's like I'm thinking they're saying: "You should stick with one and not worry about the other". Even thought that is totally not the case of what they're saying. But I really dislike when fans compare them in negative ways, namely by saying that one is better than the other in various fields (i.e. - hotness/cuteness, dancing, singing, etc.) >:( I can't --no--I REFUSE to do that. If I do compare, it's all for good things. I guess I just want fans who are either Changmin/Junnosuke-biased to recognize that BOTH are special. 

I guess this would filter in with my previous post in the section that was talking about Kpop and Jpop.  Anyways...peace out~! 

March Is Not Shaping Up Too Well...

Just yesterday I came across two pieces of upsetting news: one in the real world and the other in the fandom world.  I'll begin with the real world because that is really important.  If you have a Twitter or a Facebook or any other means of social networking, you may have seen the words 'Invisible Children' somewhere.  There is this mass project going on to make it well known who these children are.  I came across this video (which is being spread), and if you have half an hour, it's worth watching.  I didn't think I could sit through and watch all of it.  ^^;;  But I did.  And even if you don't watch all of it, at least get something out of it.  And pass it on.  :D  I know that there're alot of bad things happening in the world, but I feel that for the longest time problems in places like Africa and India go unnoticed.

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I'm not much of a shaker or a mover when it comes to stuff like this, so all I can really do is just pass this on.  :3

Ah, the next issue within the fandom.  Yet again, JYJ has been accused of hitting and cursing at their fans.  There is an alleged video (audio only) where you can hear Jaejoong cursing and 'hitting' a fan.  I have not watched these videos though.  Some fans who heard of this news were shocked.  Two general reactions were either anger and extremem disappointment at the members or anger and extreme disappointment toward these fans.  I'm against any kind of violence, but I have to admit that these fans got what they came for.  But it is suprising that the members have lasted this long with these kinds of fans.  "What kind," you ask?  They are called 'sasaeng' fans....an EXTREME version of stalkers.  This post from Tumblr explanis it better:  Sasaeng Fans.  Now, I may call myself a crazy-obsessed fan, but I know for sure that I am nowhere near the level of them.  I have yet another article that tells of various incidences involving all members of TVXQ.  But it's not only this group that has suffered from sasaengs.  Warning:  There is quite a bit of cursing in the beginning and it is really long, but I advise you read it all.  Other famous Kpop stars as well have been stalked.  It's just that TVXQ's tends to be really prevalent.  I've heard of some of these incidences for the span that I've been a Kpop fan.  And I do remember the members speaking about them on a variety program.  However, there were some events that I didn't even know about.  ESPECIALLY WHEN IT CAME TO MY ULTIMATE BIAS BEING INJURED AND BROUGHT TO THE POINT OF TEARS!!!!  >:O  It was really upsetting.  And then when I looked at my poster of them in my room, I felt really bad for them.  I have KakaoTalk for the simple reason of looking for Changmin (because apparently he has one) but now I don't think I'll be using it for a long time because it sounds like stalking.  In any case, this post should hopefully bring more insight and make us all rethink what kind of fans we are.     

     

Being A Butthurt Fan Really Sucks: I'm Really Tool Old To Be Doing Stuff Like This

I'm going to be butthurt for a moment on this post.  Today, it was said that Akanishi Jin (former member of KAT-TUN, and my 2nd favorite from said group) was to marry a celebrity named Kuroki Meisa.  I've heard her name before.  :o  But that's not all!  She's also said to be pregnant.  This came as quite a shock to me.  Am I upset?  Yeah, I'll say it.  Can I do anything about it?  Other than complaining and the likes, no I cannot.  Besides, I'm wa~ay too far away from any of my favorite celebrities to do anything.  And I can't just go and troll her Twitter or whatever with messages of hate as much as this bugs me.  You see, this comes after something happened in my real life involving someone I liked in the past that had happened recently.  Not to mention that it reminds me of the scandal involving Junnosuke (my 1st favorite from KAT-TUN) being in a relationship with a 'gravure' model.  On top of that, I read that Changmin was taking pics with ladies in bikinis and that just adds on to my fangirl flames.  OTL

I suppose reactions like this from crazed fans makes other people who are casual fans really annoyed.  Most of the time, they'd say to "get over it" or "they can date whoever they want" or stuff like that.  I believe I had said stuff like this before.  ^^;;  I know that there is truth to this, and that they say they're human...but so are fans.  :o  I also know that even if I did manage to date a celebrity and suffer massive bashing for it, I think I might still be able to hold out.  ._.  I guess that sounds a little contradicting since I'm complaining right now.  However, it seems the only way for me to actually meet my goal of seeing any of them is to either become someone famous or work as a staff member for them.  OTL  How did that lady marry her favorite actor?  (I can't remember if she married Tom Cruise or some other famous guy). 

So, I'm pretty sure that if any of the celebrities I talk about on this blog or any famous news places from Asia read my blogs, they may be like "Dang...she's one crazy-@$$ chick!" and maybe try to avoid me if they ever saw me.  But I assure you, I'm still sane and just crazy 60% of the time.  I always tell myself that if I just happen to see them in real life (preferably when they're single) I can get over them when stuff like this happens.  I guess I'm more shocked at how fast this happened and how she's the same age as I am.  :x  But since I've yet to hear anything from either Akanishi or Meisa, I'm now wondering if it is true at all.  *crosses fingers in hopes that it is false*  Okay, I should stop being mean.  ^^;;  I guess I should go back to liking only anime guys (I never was interested in any male celebs like I am now)...but that is like taking a step backwards.  Eh...I'll just stop right here with this post.  I aplolgize if I wasted your time with this drabble.     

Peace out~!

So, How 'Bout Them MAMAs?

 

Before I begin this post, know that I am also a crazy fangirl in some ways.  ^_^  But...

Ugh...never have I seen so much crazy mess that is an award ceremony.  From the day the polls opened up for voting to the time of the actual award giving, things were just crazy.  But just to make things clear, I didn't really pay much attention to it all.  So I really shouldn't be saying anything about it.  But since my Twitter list is 90% Kpop related, I was still a part of it. 

In the beginning, I wasn't really opting to vote.  I kept hearing who the nominees were for certain categories and such.  HoMin were nominated for a few as well as Super Junior, B2ST, and several other groups I like.  So, the main reason I didn't want to vote was because of that: too many of my favorite groups.  But then there was also the fact that I was a little sad that JYJ was once again absent from the list.  Everyday was like one of those voting campaigns for presidential elections you'd see on television.  Fans of various groups had also found ways to boost up the voting results of their groups by making several voting accounts.  To me, I kinda felt that was wrong.  It felt like cheating.  Like fans were doing it just for the sake of the award rather than thinking about if they really deserve it.  Eventually, I did come around to voting, but I wasn't going to vote for just HoMin or just Super Junior in all categories they were nominated for.  I actually went and looked up some of the other nominated artists and the songs that they were nominated for.  But I only voted ONCE.  That was it.  The rest of the time, I watched as others made various accounts to vote.  I was pretty much ready for it to be over really.  ^^;;

Then, just yesterday (on my side of the world).  Voting had ended and the award ceremony was held...in Singapore.  But it was live streamed as well.  I didn't watch it because it was during my sleeping hours.  XD  But when I woke up...the reactions were just...  @_@  Cassiopeia was upset because HoMin didn't win anything.  And I was okay with that.  They've won so many awards in the past.  I'm sure Yunho and Changmin were like: "Ah~ No awards this year.  That's okay though.  We did our best."  But if all five were there, I'm sure it would've been an almost all-kill.  It just goes to show that anything that was once full and becomes divided doesn't stand a good chance.  Kind of like the slogan I kept hearing while in school.  "United We Stand, Divided We Fall".  So...what does that tell us, Cassies?  Anyway, I believe E.L.F.s were upset because they didn't win a certain award.  Again.  Nothing to worry about.  I think Super Junior did well this year too.  And I think they won an award anyway, so I'm cool with it.  I'm not sure why BlackJacks (2NE1's fans) were upset though.  Either way, many fandoms were butthurt that evening.

Now...I know that there are some things that I do get upset about in my fangirl life.  Most of it being whenever my biases are said to be in relationships and stuff or when things between JYJ and HoMin stans flare up.  But when it comes to awards...I'm cool with it.  HoMin may not have won any awards, but look at our situation.  And heck, neither JYJ or HoMin are nominated for the Golden Disk Awards.  My theory is because they know how us Cassies are.  ^^;;  But whatever, TVXQ (all five members of course) are still stars in my eyes.  No need for an award.  Just keep on truckin' towards reunification.  To the artists that won an award, I congradualate you~! 

I know I may sound like a bitter fan or some meanie that just stole your lunch money, but doesn't some of my words have at least some truth or sense to them?  As one of my fellow Cassie friends has said...I am a thinking fan.  There are lots of things I think about that deal with how this fandom is and how I wish it was.  So, as usual, I apologize for stepping on some toes.  Now...onto my next post!

Oh, Cassiopeia... =_=;;

Ah, Cassiopeia...I really do enjoy being a part of this large fandom, but ever since the latter part of 2009 things haven't been the best.  With the seperation of the members into two groups at the moment and all the constant fighting/bashing, it turns even the nicest of fans into really mean ones.  Others who cannot handle any of the arguing simply become a 'turned off' fan or leave the fandom altogether.  As of right now, the fans are split into three groups: JYJ stans, HoMin stans, and OT5 stans.  In the case of OT5, there can be subtle differences. 

To me, JYJ stans are quite vocal about their issues (be it with HoMin or anything else).  In the beginning, I was very much okay with how JYJ stans felt.  They must've found it unfair that Yunho and Changmin went on to promote asTVXQ when Jaejoong, Yoochun, and Junsu couldn't.  They must've also felt upset when the said three were (and still are) banned from any show that would help promote them.  I'm not going to lie, I feel the same way.  So, that is why I can side with JYJ stans on this:  simply because I still feel like there is some injustice towards Jaejoong, Yoochun, and Junsu.  But lately, there have been some fans that take their frustrations a little too far and do some crazy things with it.  HoMin stans are, in my opinion, passive-agressive with their issues.  They aren't as vocal with things as far as I've seen.  When the initial seperation happened, I wasn't really to enthusiastic with them.  Yes, I'd support TVXQ, but not 2VXQ or whatever they call it.  Like JYJ stans, they make it known that they do not like the other members.  Most of their conflicts rise whenever a JYJ stan makes themselves present or whenever bashing comes into play.  OT5 stans are a little more bearable.  It depends on what type you are though.  As I had heard once, you have 2 types: ones that support the five members even through this seperation and the ones that support the five members' work prior to.  Where do I fall in this?  I'm probably half and half.  I support all five even through this seperation, but I haven't been as enthusiastic with listening to their recent stuff or keeping up with news on them.  If you were to ask me what would be my favorite song on the 'In Heaven' or 'TONE' albums, I'd probably just pick one out of the blue because I haven't heard all the songs on either album.  But most OT5 stans have the same wish to see all members back together again or at least see them have their friendship restored.  There are a few who do not mind that TVXQ has split the way it has and actually don't mind if they never get back together.  That makes me a little sad to hear it though.  The conflicts that OT5 stans have is whenever JYJ and HoMin fans fight amongst themselves or when both of those entities get into a tussle with them.  Sometimes it is what JYJ/HoMin stans say that sets off an OT5.  Thus, some mean things could come from them.  And to me, that is just as bad as being JYJ/HoMin biased.  -_-;;  I know I may have said some mean things about JYJ/HoMin stans too (just to make you all feel better).  >_<  So, no matter how you look at it, all parts of the fandom are a little rough around the edges.  Lately, JYJ stans have been getting a bad reputation for their lashing out in these past few months.  But amidst all that, I still think there are some good fans within that side of the fandom.  Just like I'm sure there are within the HoMin and OT5.  (S/N:  Just to put this out there, I'm not very fond of fans that say things like "I hate JYJ or HoMin or saying 'ex'-members.  It aggrivates me.)  It's really sad to think this way but for fans who did abandon one side, they must've never really liked a few members in the first place.  -_-;;  I'd like to say that's being a fake fan, but that may be too strong a word.  But what will those fans do when TVXQ comes back together again?  If they go back to cheering "We love you all!" all I can do is shake my head in shame because I'd consider that being finicky or two-faced.  But that's just my opinion. 

Fangirl Moodswings

I feel a bit intimidated when I step into a group that has long been established in the entertainment world and has so many fans that are 'well-seasoned' in terms of knowlege of a member I like.  I usually think: "Wow...they know alot about him.  They'd make a better pair than I would with him."  It was a little like that in the beginning for me with Changmin in TVXQ, but it seems a bit worse for Junnosuke in KAT-TUN.  :o  I hope none of you take it the wrong way of course.   I really do admire the loyalty in some of you fans because it must be so easy to stick with just one person (which I seem to have temporarily lost sight with).   I only say that last part because loyalty/faithfulness is one of the big traits of a Leo.  Maybe that is why my brain is fried whenever I look at the pics on my Windows 7 desktop thingy because it's got both Changmin and Junnosuke pics to shuffle through. 

I see fans who are strictly Changmin and ones who are strictly Junnosuke biased. And ones that like both already seem to have chosen who they'd most likely stick with. So, where does that leave me? I still think that I'd most likely choose Changmin, but then I don't want to lose Junnosuke either.  Then I think: "Is this really something to be fretting over?" XD   I also don't want to be considered a 'fake' fan or a disappointment to one fandom or the other for liking both of these guys very much. It's like I'm thinking they're saying: "You should stick with one and not worry about the other".  Even thought that is totally not the case of what they're saying.  But I really dislike when fans compare them in negative ways, namely by saying that one is better than the other in various fields (i.e. - hotness/cuteness, dancing, singing, etc.)  >:(  I can't --no--I REFUSE to do that.  If I do compare, it's all for good things.  I guess I just want fans who are either Changmin/Junnosuke-biased to recognize that BOTH are special. 

Either way, both make me very happy…but I’m also finding myself asking: “Why do you two make it so difficult? Wae/Doushite?” (o_o;)

~Myndless~ Ramblings of the 'Same Old, Same Old'

While surfing DBSKALWAYS, the website I fancy, I came across an article that was shared from another site called JYJFanTalk.  This post was borrowed from the original author of another blog.  While reading it, I was getting the notion that she's:  single all her life, doesn't wear make-up, and wonders why her dating life sucks.  So I was like "Yeah, that kinda sounds like me."  But then she got into a subject that most fans tend to push into the back of their minds until it is brought to their attention:  any member of a group they follow becoming romantically involved with someone.  And to make it a rather 'harsh reality', she used TVXQ/JYJ as an example. 

Now I have heard this said many times:  "The members need love too."  And I am one to agree with that.  It's just...well...I wanted to be that one special girl to administer that love (to Changmin, of course).  After reading posts like that, I usually get that sense of "Well, dang...now what am I supposed to do?" or "Should I just give up on that notion of sharing my life with him since it seems so useless to keep wishing?"  I get upsetting/melancholy thoughts whenever I read things of that nature.  And it sticks around for quite some time.  The worst things are when people make comments like "Oh, I'm glad he/she is finally getting some/tapping that".  -_-;; 

Of course, I'm gonna use Changmin as my example because I love him.  Actually I am still at a loss to even say it is love or should I call it lust?  Anyway...so, when he does get a girlfriend, how am I gonna act?  Well, chances are he's probably got one now.  I know he's too handsome to stay single for very long.  And since he's so ninja about his private life, it's rather difficult to know for sure.  But if it is announced publicly, I may be quite upset.  But if it were just ar normal girl, I may be less upset than if it were a celebrity.  However, if it is announced that he got secretly married and has a child already...guess how I'm gonna feel?  :(   But it's not like I'm gonna be so mand that I'll find a way to harm their loved ones.  I don't think I'd have the gall to do that.  However, I'd probably forever wish I was in her place at that given moment.  But then I should also think of it this way:  If I do get into a relationship with Changmin...imagine how many hearts I'll break because of it.  :(

Way To Make An Impression On Me, Code-V

So, apparently, there is some buzz about this Kpop group called Code-V.  They've been around for a while, but this is my first time ever hearing of them.  What brought them to the attention of some fans was the article of an interview that was released a while back in which they said they'd "surpass" TVXQ and some other things like talking about the split among the members and fans switching to them.  I'm a little fuzzy on the details since I didn't bother to look up the article myself, but it does sound a bit arrogant.  But then there are fans that say that the media had twisted the Code-V member's words as well.

But just today, I came across this video of Code-V singing 'Love In the Ice' at Budokan.


Video credit: diakingtwo

If memory serves me right, Budokan took TVXQ a while to make it to.  Which is another reason why I'm a big disgruntled because now it is so easy for artists to make it into Japanese television within the first few months of their Japanese debut while it took TVXQ and BoA so long to even make it on a television show.  So, yeah...this thing does bother me.  But I think that the reason some fans are more vocal, hateful, and sensitive towards this is because they may feel like TVXQ is losing relavence in the Kpop world maybe?  But as long as the members of TVXQ still have a firm grip, I'm sure my first impression of Code-V will become a bit better.  I may not be a fan of them, but I won't become an anti-fan either.  So, what I can say to all Cassies who are upset is that we shouldn't be upset to the point of total hatred.  Sure, they may try to surpass TVXQ, but we know just how difficult that can be. 

The Air Has Been Cleared...Somewhat

For the past few days, my fandom has been fighting with each other.  This is pretty much the norm these days anyway what with the lawsuit and our members split into two seperate groups.  But this time it involves just fans of JYJ and maybe a handful of fans that still support the five.  The issue was about Telisha Shaw's sudden plunge into the Kpop world with her song, "Our Secret".  I had posted about this a day or two ago with my feelings.  Truth be told, I was a bit jealous too so I'm not going to lie about that.  But it was made worse when fans who 'mocked' jealous fans (which I felt would probably make the situation a little more worse than it was).  It got to me so much one day that I was like @_@ and ready for this thing to be over with.  Then...I read via Twitter that Telisha was going to be the guest of the internet radio show, Asian Pop Addict (they are really funny ladies by the way).  I listened to majority of her interview, and she explained what the song meant and she apologized if fans took it the wrong way.  From what I gather, it is about a girl (any fan) and their 'secret relationship' with a member if given the chance to date him.  It's just that it's in her perspective, I suppose.  Much like the fanfics we write, and my own thoughts of how it'd be if I actually dated Changmin.  ^^;;    She is quite nice...and bubbly.  :3  She even said that Junsu knows about this issue and they kinda laughed at how people actually thought they were a couple.  Though she did say it might be kinda nice date him...or T.O.P. (but that was a joke, so don't get tangled up in it, VIPers).  So, I sent her a few tweets expressing how I was sorry for jumping to conclusions and how difficult it is to be a fan who is totally in love with a celebrity that is not even American.  Hopefully some fans will also apologize to her and let this issue die in peace.  I feel that it is good when someone comes out and says things about the issue.  And truth be told...I think I'd believe her more than I would if Junsu had come out and said something.  >_<  Mianhe, Junsu~!  Her words sounded so sincere...I just hope that I'm right about it.  ^^;;  However, I am still a bit jealous that even though she is a fan like us, she is able to get that close to any member and stuff.

I guess it's more of like an "I told you so" for fans that thought nothing of this, but what are you gonna do?  I still think that jealousy is a natural thing if you really, REALLY like someone and you feel like they're being taken.  We just all need to work on it is all.  It may be easier for some to get over it quickly, but it takes a bit longer for others (i.e.-me when I hear 'Changmin' and 'girlfriend' or 'gettin' some' in the same sentence).  My mom still thinks I'm obsessed, but I still think I'm not too much....though I oftentimes do think I may cross the line or that I have this insane view on romance and relationships.  I think it was easier back then for fans of the past because they weren't saturated with their celeb.  YouTube wasn't invented...heck internet was just becoming popular.  But the fans of today who were also able to get over it probably already had a boyfriend before and such--at least that is what I think.  Not to mention that most of the fans who did call Telisha out were probably either younger girls or (as Telisha would put it) "just now tuning into her" and what she is about. 

So, for now I hope this will place Cassies back into a lull of peace for a while.  Until next time, peace out~!