#15YearswithTVXQ

Greetings, everyone!  Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!  I hope that you all are enjoying yourselves with friends and family.  It's been a good while since I've posted anything on here, and I feel really bad about that.  But today is a special day in Kpop fandom. 

December 26th, 2018 marks fifteen years since the debut of legendary status Kpop group, TVXQ!

On December 26th, 2003 a group of five young men debuted on stage with 'Oh Holy Night' featuring BoA and 'Hug' at a joint concert for Britney Spears and BoA.  Since then they've exploded in popularity all over Asia and became one of the top Kpop acts of second generation Kpop.  TVXQ consisted of Kim Junsu (Xiah), Park Yoochun (Micky), Kim Jaejoong (Youngwoong/Hero), Shim Changmin (Choikang/ Max), and Jung Yunho (U-Know).  Around 2009, TVXQ started showing signs of the eventual split amongst them, leaving two members (Yunho and Changmin) actively promoting as TVXQ and the other three forming a new group called JYJ (Jaejoong, Yoochun, and Junsu). 

Being a fan that still supports all five, I am really proud of the acheivements that they have made and even continue to make.  I have been a fan of theirs for eleven out of the fifteen years they've been active, and they are my bias group in Kpop.  With every year that their anniversary passes, I still think that it will be the year when they come back on stage as five and reenact their debut stage once again in those high school uniforms (or some updated version of them).  It's a silly wish, but I can only imagine the ugly crying I'll do if it becomes a reality. 

So whether you are a well-seasoned or brand-spanking-new fan to Kpop, I would recommend you check out TVXQ and JYJ and reminisce old times with me. 

Here is an evolution of TVXQ (2003-2015)
Here is an evolution of JYJ (2010-2014)

'Mi Mi' Review & Happy 8th, KAT-TUN!!

My feels!!
Though this drama is only four episodes long, 'Mi Mi' really struck a chord in me I suppose. *le sigh*

"Is there a certain period of time you'd want to go back to?"


credit: Wikipedia

The story is about a webtoon artist named Han Minwoo who is having trouble trying to remember his first love from high school.  But that's not the only thing!  The very same thing that he's searching for is actually haunting him...  This mini drama switches between the past and the present, and shows you the happiness and pain of having a first love.  Changmin was cast in this drama to act as both the young and older Minwoo while Moon Gayoung was cast to play his high school sweetheart, Mimi.  Watch as the love story between these two unfold.

I was really intrigued by this drama.  I really loved the fact that it had the subject matter of art put into it, as I can relate.  This was sort of a downer drama for me though, as it just seemed to get more depressing with each episode.  At the same time I was thinking: "Darn it!  How awesome would it have been to experience a first love like that in an art room...with Changmin."  >///<  Eh, what can you do?  In a press conference, he made mention that if he could go back in time, he'd want to go to his middle school years to meet many girls.  I guess that would also be a good time period for me too as I'd want to fix some things in my life as well.  :o  How about you, fellow readers?  Is there a period of time you wish to go back to?

Happy 8th Anniversary, KAT-TUN
As of March 22, 2014, KAT-TUN will have officially debuted for eight years.  Of course they've been out longer than that.  The members have made quite a name for themselves, and I'm really glad that they're still well-loved in the fandom (for the most part).  Though they've gone from six members to four, I will continue to support each and every one of them.  I do hope they will keep doing what they love and I shall do my best to keep fangirling them along the way. 

 

Well, until next time~!  (^__^)/

Happy Valentine's Day!

Greetings, fellow readers!  Today is February 14th.  It is a holiday that is known all over the world--Valentine's Day.  A little history lesson:  There was a time in the Roman empire where marriages were banned.  One man who is now named Saint Valentine was imprisoned for helping couples to get married.  But even while he was in there, he was still marrying off people using heart-shaped leaves (I believe).  Unfortunately, he was beheaded.  :(  But that's how we got this loving holiday.

A day where couples get together to enjoy each other's company at the very least.  Most buy their loved ones chocolate, teddy bears, or jewelry on this day, so I'd imagine that those industries see a good amount of money come in.  ^^  In Japan and S. Korea, women will give the guy they like chocolate with handmade ones signifying that she really likes you.  It's all in hopes that they will recieve the same thing one month later on White Day.  Now, if you're single (like me) this might be considered your least favorite holiday in the year.  Many call this day Single Awareness Day, but in S. Korea that day doesn't come until two months from today and is known as Black Day. 

And if you're a fangirl (also like me) then today is where you will spend the day with your bias...in your head.  *insert love song of your choice*  Here are the top five of my bias list who I'd love to spend the day with:

1. Changmin (TVXQ)

Of course he's going to top my list.  He's my very first bias and still remains so to this day.  A few years back, I had also made a post for Valentine's Day specifically for him.  And while I now kind of shake my head at how awkward that post got in the end, the feelings still remain the same.  I would imagine that if we did spend Valentine's Day together, we'd go out to eat at a nice restaurant.  I know it'd still be a bit difficult for him, but he'd try to be more affectionate than he usually is.  And with me being shy, it'd be much harder.  But through the day the awkwardness would wear away, and we'd really enjoy ourselves.  It'd probably end with us sitting in a cafe` having a conversation about a variety of topics.  

2. Junnosuke (KAT-TUN)

Ah, Junnosuke...  If we were to spend Valentine's Day together, he'd try to make it as fun as possible.  He might take me to interesting places: Tokyo Tower, Tokyo Skytree, a museum or two, etc.  And of course, he'd take me to eat out too.  Oh!  And let's not forget about all the karaoke afterwards!   

3. Jaejoong (TVXQ/JYJ)

I think that if I we were to spend Valentine's Day together, we'd be at his house the whole day.  We'd make dinner together, and I believe he would be the one to make the atmosphere more romantic with dim lights and such.

What Even?

Yunho has emotional support & Jaejoong may be heading into the army soon?
Ah, I really do like how Yunho has said that he finds solace talking to a stuffed animal.  I'm sure many of us do the same thing.  Sometimes they make the best listeners.  XD  It's going to be a sad day for many fans when Jaejoong will enlist into the army.  But there may be pluses to it too.  Even though he'll have to go through the same rigorous training as average citizens (thanks to a prior scandal by another celeb in the army a year or two ago) it can also be a resting period from his career....and fans.  I'm thinking that this year, quite a few of the second generation Kpop artists will be heading into the army.  That means the rest of SS501, a good chunk of Super Junior, at least T.O.P. of Big Bang, and four out of five members of TVXQ.  But in my opinion (and to save us the agony), I think they all should go in at the same time and get it over with. 

Kpop English fails
So while I was looking around on YouTube, catching up on MVs of groups I haven't been keeping up with, I came across a video of snippets of Kpop songs and their English fails.  It's basically the English in the song that doesn't necessarily make sense, or how some of the words they pronounce sound really different.  Take a look:

Credit: rightful owners on Youtube

 

Some of my favorites: "You look like a door", "Nothing sober", "Oh. My. God. I'm. So. Hard.", and "You're not a Batgirl".  Too bad they didn't put "WE GOIN' HARD TO THE COFFEE HOUSE" like I said in my last post.  But even though there are quite a few songs with such 'fail', some Kpop artists do know their English:

Credit: rightful owners on YouTube

 

What is this nonsense?

Apparently this has been brewing for a few days, but then exploded.  It is an issue surrounding Kpop group B1A4.  Unfortunately, they got tangled up with the worst fandom to be involved with--Cassiopeia.  Usually when my primary fandom feels any of our members aren't getting the recognition they 'deserve', they tend to call the other fandom/artist/company/whatever out on it.  Things just got more ugly when some BANAs (B1A4 fans) made a wrong move and brought up old scars for both Yunho (poisoned drink) and Jaejoong (adoption issue).  Then Cassies came back and started saying mean things to the B1A4 members via their Twitter accounts  Really, now...what is this nonsense?!  First of all, two wrongs do not make a right.  Second, is it really going to kill HoMin (or JYJ) if they lose once in a while?  I know that what BANAs did was wrong, but if Cassies didn't instigate and just let the group have their win, things wouldn't have turned out the way they did.  Besides, who are Cassies to judge when they've done some pretty crazy things in the past?   How are fans of one group supposed to know what really goes on in another group or their fandom if they're not going to take the time to learn about that group and their fans and how they do things?  This is why I don't pay attention to music charts and rankings as much--if at all.  And my fandom seems to have become more pushier when it comes to trying to vote up HoMin or JYJ on anything these days.  "You're not a true fan if you don't do this."  Nope...I'm still a fan.  I know this also goes on in other fandoms, but since the promotions of 'Something' started, I've seen it get so bad.  And while our members are always greatful for our support, I sometimes wonder if they are also embarrassed by the actions of our fandom.  They've been in the business for 10 years now.  Newer groups are coming out.  It is inevitable that we will have to be on the backburner from time to time.  I'm sure the members know this.  To me, it doesn't mean they're less relavant.  How do you think fans of even older groups feel?  I don't think it's taboo to get into other groups either.  There was something I read on Tumblr a while ago that said: "I may be into alot of groups now, but at the end of the day, I'll always love my original group" (or something like that).  So, Cassiopeia...what do we need to do...?  I know I'm always ranting about this particular fandom, but don't forget that I still consider myself one.  It's just really frustrating when I see multiple fandoms that I like try to tear each other down.  And this doesn't just apply to Kpop.  Jpop and others are also known to do this stuff.  Did I bruise any egos with this?  

 

Now, onto nicer things...

 

Changmin in a minidrama

Well, it's not on KBS, and it's short, but Changmin is going to be in another drama!  He says that he wants to show us how much his acting has improved since 'Paradise Ranch'.  The minidrama is called 'MiMi' and he plays as a webtoon artist.  From what I'm seeing, Changmin is a webtoonist who lost his high school sweetheart 10 years ago.  But, she comes to visit him as a ghost.  So...I guess it's like a ghost love story...like 'Fatal Frame III: The Tormented' in a way.  XD  Let's see if I can handle the kissing scenes like I did for 'Paradise Ranch'. 

 

Well, that's all for now.  Until next time...if I have any readers left.  (^__^)/





Well, Well, Well...

All right!  First post of 2014!  \(^o^)/  Greetings, everyone.  I hope your holidays were great.  Let's jump into things, shall we?

"She's got that 'Something'"
Pretty much as soon as the clock struck midnight, Yunho and Changmin released a music video titled 'Something.  It kind of reminds me of a cross between TaeTiSeo's (a subgroup of SNSD) 'Twinkle' and Maaya Sakamoto's 'DOWNTOWN'--all of which have that 1920-1930s swing feel.  At first, it took me a while to get into the song.  It seems to be a recurring thing where I can't get into their songs until much later.  But now, it's growing on me.  I do like how the music video was set up.  But then there were the scenes where they had the ladies all over them...   ಠ_ಠ  *jealous fangirl*  I could've just sat around and looked pretty while next to Changmin too.  Here is the music video if you have yet to watch it:

 

They also released the album 'TENSE' not too long ago with quite a new genre that they're dabbling into.  There is a song on there called 'TEN (10 Years)' which I'm guessing is a dedication song to the fans for ten years in the business.  It's rather bittersweet for me.  *sigh*  I fear that if Jaejong, Yoochun, and Junsu don't release something music-related as JYJ then they might be forgotten.  It'd be even better if they could come back together as five.  What I really dislike is that fact that some fans say that Yunho and Changmin don't give a s**t about the other three or vice versa as they move on in their careeres.  >:/ 

 

Changmin leaves 'Cool Kiz on the Block'

I'm really sad about this.  While I do admit that I did watch the show mainly for him, I've become really into watching all the teammates as they played various sports.  But Changmin decided that he should leave the show so he could better focus on the promotions for 'Something'.  Now he won't get to see the Winter Olympics in Sochi.  I will really miss his presence on the show.  I predict that the viewer ratings will drop due to this which is also sad. 

 

By gosh...it's finally happened...

After kind of evading them for a while, EXO has wormed their way into my fangirl heart.  I'm still not familiar with faces and names, but I've got half of them down.  This all happened about a week ago as my sister and I were watching their little t.v. show called 'EXO Showtime'.  If I were to pick a bias as of right now, it'd most likely be Chanyeol and Tao, but Xiumin and Chen also catch my eye. 

 

A boy who loves his fuzzy hats--Chanyeol

"Please buy me this"--Tao

 

Tidbits Of News

Lately, I've been kind of seeing a couple of things related to swimming (well, only two things).  And all I can relate them to is the anime that became quite popular, 'Free!'  But I could be wrong.  They could've been for summer.  One is an upcoming Korean movie called 'No Breathing'.  From the link, the plot seems to be about swimming rivals and the both of them falling for the same girl.  It's kind of like the anime with the exception of falling for a girl.  ^^  And it looks like one of my favorite SNSD members is in it!  The other swim-related show is the next segment to 'Cool Kiz on the Block'.  I really do enjoy this show--and not just because Changmin is in it.  After the sport of badminton, they're going to go swimming.  I wonder if that'll include diving, synchronized swimming, or competitive swimming.  And now that I think of it...what if they do make a reference to 'Free!'?  XD  Pictures of Changmin in a pool (with a shirt on) are already coming out and some fans are really excited for this segment because of possible shirtlessness, speedos, or whatever.  While I'd also most likely enjoy this segment as well, I was really hoping for a different sport.  I really wanted them to play billiards.  Why you ask?  That way I could possibly see another JunnoMin interaction.  Junnosuke is really good at billiards, and maybe Changmin would've called him up to be on the Cool Kiz team.  Then I would've seen several weeks of interactions.  *o*  But I'm also certain this may not come to pass because Junnosuke is a Johnnys, and the company might not let that happen.  Then there's the slight issue with the realtionship between Japan and S. Korea already.   *dreams are shot*  OTL

I also heard about Yunho and Changmin having a fanmeeting with Cassiopeia.  While I'd love to be there, I'd feel quite melancholic about it at the same time.  Because I want to be at one that has all five members.  :x  Also, I heard that Junsu sang a little of 'Stand By U' and 'Forever Love'.  That makes me quite glad.  I know it might sound contradicting as I said I was uncomfortable with Yunho and Changmin singing their old songs.  Junsu did say, however, that he would rather have sang it as five.  Additionally (and it will sound contradictory again), I heard a clip of Changmin singing a bit of 'HUG'.  And that made me sad.  I really don't want them to sing 'HUG' or 'Stay With Me Tonight' unless they're going to sing it as five.  Those two songs just don't work for me unless there are five voices.  :/

Now, onto more pressing matters in fandom...

KOKI IS NO LONGER A MEMBER OF KAT-TUN!!!!!!  ;A;  This makes me really sad!  I wonder if this is why KAT-TUN hasn't been doing much these past few months.  Koki isn't even a bias of mine, but it is really upsetting to see him leave.  He was the one who came up with the fandom's name, Hyphen (which stood for the 'link' keeping KAT-TUN together).  He was the one who said he loved the fans very much and during concerts would tell them to stick with KAT-TUN forever.  The reason for the termination of his contract is due to his breaking of the rules Johnny puts in place for the artist.  And Koki's latest scandal was...crazy, so I can see why the company would do it.  But at the same time, I really wish they could've suspended him for the next promotional album or something.  Here are the messages left by the company, Koki himself, and the other members.  From the way it sounded it's like Koki will still remain in Johnny's Ent. but only as a solo artist or he might get demoted to Jr. status (as I've read some other artists have done when they got in serioius trouble).  This is like a second blow to Hyphens.  I believe it will be much harder to replicate the sound of their old songs as Koki was their only true rapper and he usually had a part to himself in alot of the songs.  And while I know Nakamaru or Junnosuke could do it, it still just wouldn't be the same.  To be honest, it was hard for me to listen to them sing their old songs and have to sing Jin's parts.  *sigh*  It's good, however, to see some fans say that they'll continue to support Koki after his departure, but I wonder if there will be ones that will treat him like they do Jin.  :/  I'm sure there are some fans that even might think "At least isn't not my favorite member" or commentors that might say "At least it's not happening to my favorite group".  >__>  To me, I'll continue to consider him as part of KAT-TUN like I do for Jin.  It's also the same thing I do for many of the other groups that I've come to know that also have members to leave--case and point being TVXQ.  Koki, you shall be truly missed as being a part of KAT-TUN.

 

Well, that is all for now.  Until next time...

Shipping Oddball & Nissan Stadium

"It's not what you think!"
So a while back, I was reading a fanfic titled 'Marry Me'.  As outrageous as it was at times, I also found it rather amusing.  The thing about it is that the main couple is JunnosukexChangmin.  I tend to shy away from fanfics of the 'shipping' genre, but there are times where I'll find one that piques my interest.  And because I'm rather paritcular to either JaeMin and now the JunnoMin ships, I read stories about them.  It's probably due to the rarity of material on them as well as the lack of interaction I see between JaeMin and JunnoMin.  But it's not what you think!  >__<  While I do find the fanfiction to be interesting, I still cannot for the love of me ship them into reality.  That's because I'd really like to ship them with me.  They are some of my biases after all.  (*≧∀≦)ゞ 

So, yeah...I'm rather an oddball.  While I don't like the idea of shipping at all, I still find reading the fanfics about it to be intriguing.  One side-effect from reading some (especially ones with smut) is that you can't see them the same way for at least the rest of the day.  XD

Party at Nissan Stadium!
Anyway...congrats to Yunho and Changmin for two days at Nissan Stadium!  I hear it's the biggest one in Japan.  I thought for sure Tokyo Dome was though, but I guess that's why one's a stadium and the other is a dome.  It was nice of fans to do multiple light shows for them.  I kind of expected alot of the praise that they got too.  Though I couldn't shake the feeling of "I wish that they could've done this feat as five".  :(  So, if possible...when Jaejoong, Yoochun, and Junsu make it there, I hope that they will also have a light show put on for them.  Which reminds me!  While surfing the Internet trying to see if KAT-TUN also has done a show at Nissan Stadium (I thought they might've) I did come across new that was a year old saying that Junsu did perform there as well.  He was part of a small concert, but he indeed was there.  I know that Yunho and Changmin are considered the first 'foreign artists' to perform there...but Junsu was there too.  Wouldn't that count for something?  :o   

I'm not really sure where else I wanted to go with this post, so I'll just end it here.  Until next time~! 

*off to read more fanfics, lol*

Getting Caught Up...Sort Of... ^^

Well, it sure has been a while, hasn't it?  Quite a bit has happened since my last post (majority being linked to my ultimate bias).  From mid-February onward was quite eventful in my fangirl life.  On to the highlights!

HunterxHunter
Thanks to my sister, I have been watching an anime called 'HunterxHunter'.  I find it to be quite interesting.  It's from the same creator as 'Yu Yu Hakusho', so it was only a matter of time before my sister took to this anime.  We've been watching the 2011 version as well as the original.  They're both very different in some parts.  But since I saw the recent one first, I'm more into that one.  The story is about a boy named Gon who wants to become a Hunter so that he can find his father who left him when he was young.  He participates in the difficult exam to attain his license and makes friends along the way (who also have reasons for getting a license).  Many issues occur after he obtains it, but you'll have to watch to see what they are.  :D

I actually participated in a birthday project
For Changmin's 25th birthday, I thought I'd actually do something.  So, this time I participated in a birthday project hosted by MAXNATION an official fansite dedicated to him.  The deadline was a few days before his birthday and the notice was given a month in advance.  However, I waited until pretty much the last moment to work on it.  I was trying to gather ideas.  I wanted this card to be special, but not have that "Oppa, I love you!" type of feel.  So, I came up with this:

   

Cute, ne?  Sorry if they're difficult to see.  The shirts on here are origami and I drew out the '2' and the '5'.  I also came up with the poem on my own.  As for him receiveing this card, I do not know...but I really hope he did.  .__.

'Moonlight Prince' airs...but soon gets cancelled
It was a short-lived program, but I found it amusing.  Of course the main reason I watched it was because Changmin was one of the fixed hosts of the show and it showed on KBS (a channel I actually have).  In Korea, it began airing in mid-January, but for KBS World, it came out much later.  The show is basically a variety show created to be like a book club.  As in they talk about books.  It was also Kang Ho Dong's creation as well as his return to television after a long hiatus (it's a long story).  I know it might sound boring, but there was a reason it came on late at night in Korea...some of the comments they had might have been 'inappropriate' for the sensitive audience.  But I found them to be very hilarious!  And, of course, since Changmin is on the show...he brought on those snarky comments like it was nothing!  Alas, it wasn't enough.  The viewer ratings were pretty bad.  Most found it "too boring" to watch.  But I think there was another reason.  This leads me to my next highlight...

Fanciful Thoughts (◡ ‿ ◡ ✿)

First off, I'd like to say that yesterday I started playing 'Final Fantasy Dissidia' and 'Final Fantasy Dissidia 012' again after a while of not doing so, and ended up playing well into the wee hours of today.  ^^  The game is quite fun, but it takes a long time to level up the characters.  Ah...Final Fantasy (the whole series) is really great.  I recommend any of the games to anyone who has never played them.  I'm sure you'll get hooked.  >:D  Of course, the ones near and dear to me are Final Fantasy VII and Final Fantasy X.  The reason for FFVII is because it was the first one I played by myself, and FFX because it was the first one we got.  Each game has a great storyline and epic music.  I think the downside for the games (especially newbie players) is the complex battle systems for some of them. 

*sigh*  It seems to be that time of year...the dreaded voting for the Mnet Asian Music Awards is underway.  That means that many fans will try to promote others to voting for certain groups/artists.  Sometimes they'll make multiple accounts to override the rule of one vote per day and make 'alliances' with other fanbases to secure certain votes.  -___-  I've seen this all happen last year.  Fans will also get really upset if you choose not to vote.  My apologies if I decide not to.  Many of the artists I'd vote for probably wouldn't be what most fans I associate with would want me to vote for anyway.  It's funny--it feels like with this voting thing, it's more about doing anything to get their artist to be #1 rather than really appreciating the reason why they were nominated for it.  More or less, it's like a popularity contest rather than a music awards.  Two prime examples would be TVXQ vs. SuJu and B.A.P. vs. EXO.  I'll talk more on the B.A.P. vs. EXO.  To me, I think B.A.P. should get the award for 'best newcomer--male group' because looking at all they've done in the past 9 months since their debut, I'd say it's a great feat.  Yeah, EXO is good too, but I haven't heard much in their singing department since their last promotion.  Of course, I'm not following either group as bad as I do some of the older genearations of Kpop, so you don't have to take my word for it. 

Oh, The Pains Of Being A 'Multi-Fan'

It's funny how I hear some fans say that they just don't understand how one person can be a fan of so many groups.*silently raises hand* Well...I'm one. (.__.)/  If you didn't know already, I'm a fan of many, many, MANY groups.  Well, I guess 'fan' wouldn't be the very best word, but there are many groups that I like.  I may not listen to all of them on a daily basis and I tend to keep up with my biased groups more *coughTVXQandKAT-TUNcough* but if you want to talk to me about another group, I'll try my best to converse with you about them.  However, there seems to be a tiny problem that I'm beginnig to notice...

Jpop and Kpop fans don't really get along well with each other...

And this frustrates me.  .___.  How am I supposed to talk to both general fandoms?  You see, I have a tendency to talk about the other genre to each fandom.  I know it's probably not very smart of me, but I just want to 'promote' the genre to the opposite fandom.  For example, I'll use TVXQ and KAT-TUN--more specifically, my biases from both groups.  I really do like them, and I'll talk about them to anyone and everyone.  XD  BUT!!!  If I happen to say that Changmin and Junnosuke look alike--er--similar at some glances...I'll get told that they don't.  I've also noticed that when I make my own Tumblr posts, the ones that get the most responses tend to be the individual ones rather than the ones I do that have both of them in there (if that makes sense).  I have to apologize, but I seem to see it more from other Junnosuke fans.  :x  But either side will also sometimes say bad things about the other, and that doesn't sit well with me as they are my top oppa and ichiban.  Are they not worthy to be complimented for looking alike even in the slightest?  Is it insulting or something?  I don't think it's a bad thing as they're very attractive.  I could add to it that they both look like Taiwanese singer/actor, Jerry Yan.  :o  And of course their personalities are very different.  I've grown to love each of their quirks--even though some of the things they may do or say may not be my cup of tea.  Just imagine how it would be if I had said that Donghae of Super Junior and Kame of KAT-TUN looked similar (which they kind of do)?  OTL

Many fandoms of groups that I like tend to bash each other...

I don't really claim to be an elitist fan of any group (maybe more of a 'knowledgeable' fan), but how some are sounding makes them think like they're better than others and that certain fans should 'fall in line' or something.  It's hard to even say that one group's style is similar to another without having a fan tell you off.  I'll admit, I'll say something along the lines of that if TVXQ is mentioned--as I did get upset when a group called Code V sang 'Love in the Ice'--but I don't think it's right to nit-pick so harshly especially if it was just for fun.  I guess that would fall under what I had stated in the above paragraph when it comes to your favorite celebrities looking alike at first glance.    

*sigh*  Fandom is such a scary place sometimes.  Like in my previous entry, I've considered leaving it all.  But then I'd get quite lonely not being able to spazz with all the nice people I've met.  So, I'll just let you all know that: 1) I like both Jpop and Kpop (and some Mandopop) at pretty much an equal level, 2) Changmin and Junnosuke are my top biases, and I really like to point out similarities they have (though it's becoming less and less the more I look at them), and 3) at least try not to diss either genre/group.  It's as simple as that. 

Hm...this seemed to have turned into a rant post...mainly about my biases (when is it not?).  For this I apologize if I sounded rough, but I've had similar thoughts about this ever since I eased back into the Jpop fandom and it sort of peaked when I read an insult about Changmin.  -_-  As a side-note I'd like to say that maybe the reason for the tension has to do with the bad blood between Japan and S. Korea due to their history with each other?  In any case, I should post a more light-hearted entry soon.  Peace out~! 

As Another Year Passes...

I know it's not even the end of the year, but usually whenever SM artists come to the U.S., it's usually once a year.  Thus, I say 'another year'.  I bet you know what I may write about, huh?  Well, this past weekend fans in southern California were blessed with two Kpop concerts: SM Town and MBC Google Kpop.  It's times like this that I REALLY wish I lived in California.  OTL  Anyway....

SM Town was a great success from what I'm gathering.  A good chunk of the artists came over to perform, and many fanaccounts were made.  Twitter was exploding with updates from fans that were there.  I was okay with it until I read in my timeline on Twitter that Changmin and Kyuhyun sang a duet.  It was Bruno Mars's 'Just the Way You Are'.  My first thought was "Changmin AND Kyuhyun, my two biases of TVXQ and SuJu, singing a duet?  AWESOME!!"  But then, I read that they were singing to a fangirl...while on a bended knee...while holding her hands...and they hugged her at the end.  Needless to say that I was really, really jealous of her.  It's great that she was an OT5 fan, but I still can't help but feel upset.  OTL  That's like one of my biggest wishes being lived through another person--of course being at the concert would be like having my wish being lived through thousands of fangirls (but to be up on stage, being serenaded to?).  I'm sorry if I sound like I'm bashing her though.  But I thought I'd just express what I'm feeling.  It's just that...everytime something like this happens, it feels like my wish to meet Changmin like that diminishes more and more with each passing year.  I know she was also chosen at random too, and for a while I wondered what it was that made her stand out.  It was interesting when she thanked God for this blessing, and I was all like:  "That's all well and good, but...  m(.__.)m"  The reason is because for a while, I've been thinking that God doesn't want me to see him.  For example, it is rare to dream of Changmin and when I do, most of the time he's ignoring me.  And of course I'm stuck here in the South for who knows how long...and I don't see Kpop coming here anytime soon.  OK LIFE, I GET IT!!!  I'm not allowed to see my ideal man in reality.  I also am aware that I'm not the only one who may think this way, and that I should be greatful that they're even touring the U.S. more because other countries have yet to be touched.  I've gotten friends to tell me that I'll get my chance one day, and it helped raise my mood.  But I felt bad that I made them feel pity for me because I'm not strong (or sane) enough to 'be honestly happy' for her like some others are.  Being a fangirl is hard, but being one that really, really likes their bias is harder.  But whatever....think of me as you will.  I hate being labeled as some crazy fan, but I guess that's what I am.  :x

Anyway, I did watch the MBC Google concert via live stream on Youtube.  The lagging was really nerve-wrecking, but I was happy to see Yunho and Changmin perform.  Yet while I was watching it on the stream, and even though it was live...it still isn't the same as actually being there. 

Well, there you have it.  Yet another entry about something related to Changmin, b*tching about why I can't have him, how lucky other fangirls are, etc.  Ms. Lucky Fangirl Who Got to Hug Changmin and Kyuhyun....you are EXTREMELY lucky, and know that while I am jealous/envious, I will not send you messages of hate or threats of any kind.  When I'm mad at people close to guys I like, I complain and I find that I may end up self-hating in the end.  I

Just to throw in here:  I'm pretty sure that if any of my biases (especially Changmin) stumble upon this post, they will shake their heads in shame.  .___.  In any case, peace out.             

Remembering 3/11 And A Little Tidbit Extra

Today was the day that marked the one year anniversary of the major natural disaster that struck Japan (even though it was yesterday in Japan).  I can still remember when I was watching the news as the water came speeding in.  It left goosebumps on my body.  As I've stated before, I used to live there and I loved it very much.  It suprised many how the people cooperated in the wake.  Though the road to recovery will be very long (believe me, I know) I know that Japan will come back better.  I hope to come back and visit soon~!  :3 

Thi is just a small post I'd like to dedicate to the people of Japan.  ^o^ 

But...as a sidenote, I'd also like to say to my ultimate bias, "Stay strong.  I know I can't support very well from here, but I shall keep trying." 

Peace out~!

Fangirl Moodswings

This is an entry I had from my LiveJournal...

I feel a bit intimidated when I step into a group that has long been established in the entertainment world and has so many fans that are 'well-seasoned' in terms of knowlege of a member I like. I usually think: "Wow...they know alot about him. They'd make a better pair than I would with him." It was a little like that in the beginning for me with Changmin in TVXQ, but it seems a bit worse for Junnosuke in KAT-TUN since I'm so late in entering the fandom. :o I hope none of you take it the wrong way of course. I really do admire the loyalty in some of you fans because it must be so easy to stick with just one person (which I seem to have temporarily lost sight with). I only say that last part because loyalty/faithfulness is one of the big traits of a Leo. Maybe that is why my brain is fried whenever I look at the pics on my Windows 7 desktop thingy because it's got both Changmin and Junnosuke pics to shuffle through.

I see fans who are strictly Changmin and ones who are strictly Junnosuke biased. And ones that like both already seem to have chosen who they'd most likely stick with. So, where does that leave me? I still think that I'd most likely choose Changmin, but then I don't want to lose Junnosuke either. Then I think: "Is this really something to be fretting over?" XD I also don't want to be considered a 'fake' fan or a disappointment to one fandom or the other for liking both of these guys very much. It's like I'm thinking they're saying: "You should stick with one and not worry about the other". Even thought that is totally not the case of what they're saying. But I really dislike when fans compare them in negative ways, namely by saying that one is better than the other in various fields (i.e. - hotness/cuteness, dancing, singing, etc.) >:( I can't --no--I REFUSE to do that. If I do compare, it's all for good things. I guess I just want fans who are either Changmin/Junnosuke-biased to recognize that BOTH are special. 

I guess this would filter in with my previous post in the section that was talking about Kpop and Jpop.  Anyways...peace out~! 

Changmin Fanart: "My Adoration"

Hello~!  I'm back with more fanart!  :D  This is actually something I did a few years ago while I was in a college art class.  If I remember correctly, it's charcoal on a piece of paper that was covered in turpentine.  I call it "My Adoration".  >///<  As always, please credit me and let me know if you want to show it to others. 

Hm...where have we all seen this picture before?  >:D 

Yes, I used this picture here.  Of course, it was the sticker from his solo album that I used because I had brought it to school on that day.  I think I've captured the essence of Changmin quite well, ne? 

A Small Scenario Involving My Two Top Biases

While looking around on Tumblr yesterday, I came across a macro of Junnosuke that I just couldn't pass up!  Then I came up with the thought that it went so well with one of the macros I have of Changmin~!  So, I made a small scenario out of it:

Imagine a hot lady walks by Junnosuke and Changmin who are just sitting around.  Junnosuke happens to catch a view of her as she's walking away and mutters:

Changmin then gets a good look at the lady, and then looks back at Junnosuke.  He replies by saying:

Junnouske is suprised at his comment and asks why he would say that.  Changmin answers by simply saying: "I'm told I can take a look at 100 girls and 'just know'."

Huhu~!  Funny, right?  ............No?  Ah, I apologize then.  I'm not quite funny.  If it offends anyone, I apologize for that too.  .____.  Credit to the original makers of both macros.  

Changmin Obsessed!

Hello, everyone~! Down below is a test to see how *coughobsessedcoughcough* you are with Shim Changmin.

I'm sure many of you know how I am with him. I found this on Live Journal from a person named chobitschii, so credit goes to her. I just wanted to post this for fun, so I won't get too jealous (lol). XD Anyway, happy test taking!
 

MAX/Changmin Obsession Test

1. You know everything about Chang Min. (Yes / No) No
2. You have viewed the 100 facts and profile about Chang Min. (Yes / No) Yes
3. You have bookmarked or saved them. (Yes / No) No
4. You do a web search on Chang Min every day. (Yes / No) No
5. You join or planning to join fanlisting, fangroups and communities dedicated to Chang Min. (Yes / No) Yes
6. You are the maintainer of the sites mentioned in no. 5 (Yes/No) Yes...sorta
7. Your current website layout features Chang Min. (Yes / No) No, but it will
8. You don't refer to Chang Min as Max. (Yes / No) Yes
9. But you refer him as Chang Min, Chang Minnie, Minnie, Maxie and other nicknames related to him. (Yes /No) Yes
10. You visit Chang Min's fansites every day. (Yes / No) No
11. And you pulled Chang Min's photos from the internet. (Yes / No) Yes
12. You have Friendster, MySpace, LJ and other blogs with your pictures and userpics are mostly Chang Min in different poses. (Yes / No) Yes
13. You have Chang Min’s pictures and posters pasted in every corner of your room. (Yes / No) No
14. You have Chang Min as your desktop wallpaper. (Yes / No) Yes
15. You write this: I<3Chang Min (Yes / No) Yes
16. And this: Chang Min & your name 4ever (Yes / No) Yes
17. You draw hearts all on no.14 and 15 or all over his name. (Yes/No) No
18. You consider Chang Min to be cute and yummy at the same time. (Yes / No) Yes
19. You feel really happy instantly when you see Chang Min's face, even though you are in a mood where you are too depressed to be happy. (Yes / No) Yes
20. You squeal when you heard Chang Min's name and when you see his face. (Yes / No) Yes
21. You are infatuated by Chang Min. (Yes / No) Yes
22. And consider him as 'your man'. (Yes / No) Haha...yes
23. All you could ever talk about is Chang Min to your friends, family and random people on the street. (Yes/No) Yes, and I believe they're sick of it.
24. You want to go to Kyung Hee University just to see Chang Min. (Yes / No) Yes
25. You are or planning to take up Korean as your second/third language. (Yes / No) Yes
26. You have dreams about Chang Min. (Yes / No) Yes
27. You have dreams of kissing Chang Min. (Yes / No) Yes
28. You want to have kids with the boy. (Yes / No) Yes
29. You have 'fantasies' about Chang Min. (Yes / No) Yes
30. When watching MVs of TVXQ, you tend to rewind them to Chang Min's close-up part. (Yes / No) No
31. You wish that you can be Mrs. Shim Chang Min or at least his girlfriend. (Yes / No) Yes

Count the number of 'yes' that you have.

Here's the results:
0-4 : It's either you hate him or you don't know who he is. Why you even take this test anyway?
5-10 : You like him..... a little.
11-16 : You're a fan, but not obsessed.
17-23 : Still healthy. Remember to keep your limits, okay.
24-30 : Off to the cold showers with you! Ehem, without Chang Min

I got 23 'yes'...lol...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY #1 BIAS~!

With only a few minutes left before the day is officially over, I'd like to make a post to celebrate the birthday of my ultimate bias, Shim Changmin~!  \(^o^)/

 Now this picture is quite relavent because he's 24 (though Korean age puts him at 25). 

It's hard to believe that it will almost have been five years since I've established him as my bias in anything fandom-related!  The first pic I ever saw of him was this one:

Actually it had all five in it, and I admit that I would've gone for Jaejoong.  But then my sister pointed out that Changmin and I were the same age.  So after looking up more and more about him, I became very attached to him.  I feel he fits my ideal so well...or that he's set the standard for my ideal man.  I don't think there's ever been a guy I've liked so much that I'd go to the extent of imagining living the rest of my life with him as crazy as that sounds.  Although there are times when I'm irked by some of the things he says or does, I still adore him and thank God for letting me at least see him (even if it's through a computer/television screen).  Haha, as the years have gone by Changmin has gotten more handsome.  I believe his part of the fanbase has grown larger as I find more and more Changmin-biased fans.  This leaves me with more competition.  OTL 

But either way, I wish Changmin a Happy Birthday and hope he'll see many more.  We are both getting old now.    I hope he enjoyed his presents and various cakes--even the one that ended up on his face.  I know he said that he'll work hard for us fans, but I believe he's already doing a fantastic job (as are the other members) and the last thing I'd want is for him to overwork himself.  As long as he remains heathly and in his right mind, I'm good.  I just wish I could see him in real life (preferably while he's still single...)  I know that this was a pretty crappy birthday message, but I can't really find any way to express how much I like this man!  That, and many other fans have said heartfelt things.  ^^;;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SHIM CHANGMIN~!  사랑해요~!  <3

 

    



Changmin = Peach

I know the title of this post is a little weird, but it is for good reason.  I just found out that Changmin is going to be casted in a Japanese movie!  \(^o^)/    And his hame is Momo!  Fans on my Twitter list were really spazzing about the name of his character.  Now, some of you may be wondering why they'd be spazzing over his name.  'Momo' in Japanese means 'peach'. 


Peaches are really tasty!  I like peach soda too.  XD  But anyway, peaches are cute, right?  They're sweet and fuzzy.  Well, it kinda really doesn't fit Changmin if you all know how his personality is.  Thus fans are really interested by the name of his character.  I hope I made some sense.  ^^;;  Anyway, if you want to read more about his role and what the movie is essentially about, take a look at this link:  Changmin's Role in Japanese Movie.  Here is a  pic of what his character may look like. 

My goodness, he's so handsome~!  >///<  Can you see how excited I am?  *o*  But since it's in Japan, I won't be able to go to a theater to see it.  I still wish him (as well as the rest of the actors) the best of luck!  And I will eventually get to see it~!  

Shim Changmin & Taguchi Junnosuke...DO SOMETHING TOGETHER!!!!!

I am serious!  Since I've become quite attached to Junnosuke--and consequently looking up things about him--I often find myself thinking:  "Wouldn't it be super cool if Changmin and Junnosuke teamed up to sing a song together?"  Or they could be in a radio program or variety show together (much like they were on 'Music Station')

The thing about that is since Junnosuke's personality reminds me a little of Junsu's, and when it comes to Changmin and Junsu...it's kinda like how Koki and Junnosuke are.  Basically, 'play fighting' would be the best way to describe it.  :3  But it would be amazing to hear them singing together!  Both are really good at singing and dancing!  And Junnosuke wants to learn Korean, so they could sing a song in either Korean or Japanese.  Any thoughts?  :3  It doesn't have to stop there!  All five members of TVXQ could collaborate with all six members of KAT-TUN (as difficult as that may be right now).  I also was thinking while watching 'Cartoon KAT-TUN' how awsome it would've been if they could've invited TVXQ on the show. 

Well, that is all for this post.  Peace~!

Fangirl Moodswings

I feel a bit intimidated when I step into a group that has long been established in the entertainment world and has so many fans that are 'well-seasoned' in terms of knowlege of a member I like.  I usually think: "Wow...they know alot about him.  They'd make a better pair than I would with him."  It was a little like that in the beginning for me with Changmin in TVXQ, but it seems a bit worse for Junnosuke in KAT-TUN.  :o  I hope none of you take it the wrong way of course.   I really do admire the loyalty in some of you fans because it must be so easy to stick with just one person (which I seem to have temporarily lost sight with).   I only say that last part because loyalty/faithfulness is one of the big traits of a Leo.  Maybe that is why my brain is fried whenever I look at the pics on my Windows 7 desktop thingy because it's got both Changmin and Junnosuke pics to shuffle through. 

I see fans who are strictly Changmin and ones who are strictly Junnosuke biased. And ones that like both already seem to have chosen who they'd most likely stick with. So, where does that leave me? I still think that I'd most likely choose Changmin, but then I don't want to lose Junnosuke either.  Then I think: "Is this really something to be fretting over?" XD   I also don't want to be considered a 'fake' fan or a disappointment to one fandom or the other for liking both of these guys very much. It's like I'm thinking they're saying: "You should stick with one and not worry about the other".  Even thought that is totally not the case of what they're saying.  But I really dislike when fans compare them in negative ways, namely by saying that one is better than the other in various fields (i.e. - hotness/cuteness, dancing, singing, etc.)  >:(  I can't --no--I REFUSE to do that.  If I do compare, it's all for good things.  I guess I just want fans who are either Changmin/Junnosuke-biased to recognize that BOTH are special. 

Either way, both make me very happy…but I’m also finding myself asking: “Why do you two make it so difficult? Wae/Doushite?” (o_o;)