Random Complaints!

Okay, so I was going through this Kpop/TVXQ website that is now on idefinate hiatus because I was looking for this article:  [NEWS] Round 1: Tohoshinki vs. KAT-TUN  But in order to do that, I had to scroll through so many other posts...most of them were about the lawsuit.  It was pretty rough to scroll past those articles because it brought up all the feelings I had during that time.  It reminded me that we're still somewhat going through this lawsuit.  Some of the articles talked about how Jaejoong, Yoochun, and Junsu would like to finish the dispute quickly and that all of them would like to remain as a group...even if they have to switch agencies or that all members still want to remain together no matter what.  It made me wonder if they still have those feelings. 

Most fans are okay with how things are currently with the five members.  This is not to say that their current achievements are bad or anything, but I really want them back together as five.  Maybe I'm putting more stress on them by seeming like the type of fan that doesn't care about their music and just wants them together again (outside of SM).  Some say: "What if they don't want to be together again?"  I know I wouldn't like to see them depressed if they don't want to, but would they really be upset if they got back together?  It makes me kind of sad because upon thinking about it...I've only been a fan of them pre-lawsuit for only about 2 years out of the 5 since I've gotten to know them. 

I also feel a little upset because of a certain 'kpopconfession' I came across on Tumblr.  It was talking about JYJ/HoMin (something about calling the TVXQ "HoMin").  It got alot of comments, most being very negative....and bashing OT5 fans by saying that they're the most delusional and annoying.  .___.  I don't really know what to think anymore.  I've been considering easing my way out of the fandom and just supporting them in my own awkward way.  But, I've come to meet some very nice people, and I don't want to lose contact with them.  ^^;; 

I'm not sure where I was going with this, but I just wanted to put it out here.  I really do miss them together as five, and sometimes seeing things the way they are now in both the members and the fandom frustrates me.  Regardless, I still do find ways to enjoy it, and fear not...I still do love the members.