Being A Butthurt Fan Really Sucks: I'm Really Tool Old To Be Doing Stuff Like This

I'm going to be butthurt for a moment on this post.  Today, it was said that Akanishi Jin (former member of KAT-TUN, and my 2nd favorite from said group) was to marry a celebrity named Kuroki Meisa.  I've heard her name before.  :o  But that's not all!  She's also said to be pregnant.  This came as quite a shock to me.  Am I upset?  Yeah, I'll say it.  Can I do anything about it?  Other than complaining and the likes, no I cannot.  Besides, I'm wa~ay too far away from any of my favorite celebrities to do anything.  And I can't just go and troll her Twitter or whatever with messages of hate as much as this bugs me.  You see, this comes after something happened in my real life involving someone I liked in the past that had happened recently.  Not to mention that it reminds me of the scandal involving Junnosuke (my 1st favorite from KAT-TUN) being in a relationship with a 'gravure' model.  On top of that, I read that Changmin was taking pics with ladies in bikinis and that just adds on to my fangirl flames.  OTL

I suppose reactions like this from crazed fans makes other people who are casual fans really annoyed.  Most of the time, they'd say to "get over it" or "they can date whoever they want" or stuff like that.  I believe I had said stuff like this before.  ^^;;  I know that there is truth to this, and that they say they're human...but so are fans.  :o  I also know that even if I did manage to date a celebrity and suffer massive bashing for it, I think I might still be able to hold out.  ._.  I guess that sounds a little contradicting since I'm complaining right now.  However, it seems the only way for me to actually meet my goal of seeing any of them is to either become someone famous or work as a staff member for them.  OTL  How did that lady marry her favorite actor?  (I can't remember if she married Tom Cruise or some other famous guy). 

So, I'm pretty sure that if any of the celebrities I talk about on this blog or any famous news places from Asia read my blogs, they may be like "Dang...she's one crazy-@$$ chick!" and maybe try to avoid me if they ever saw me.  But I assure you, I'm still sane and just crazy 60% of the time.  I always tell myself that if I just happen to see them in real life (preferably when they're single) I can get over them when stuff like this happens.  I guess I'm more shocked at how fast this happened and how she's the same age as I am.  :x  But since I've yet to hear anything from either Akanishi or Meisa, I'm now wondering if it is true at all.  *crosses fingers in hopes that it is false*  Okay, I should stop being mean.  ^^;;  I guess I should go back to liking only anime guys (I never was interested in any male celebs like I am now)...but that is like taking a step backwards.  Eh...I'll just stop right here with this post.  I aplolgize if I wasted your time with this drabble.     

Peace out~!