A Salvaged Blog!

So, I was looking through some of the things in my computer, and I came across three blogs that I had posted when I had a Cyworld.  Sadly, the site's U.S. branch had to shut down so I saved three blogs that are very meaningful.  I thought I could share them with you here.  I can't quite remember the exact dates, but I think it was around late 2008.  Now...on to number one~!

Okay, many of you who read my blogs are probably like..."Wow, she is a crazy,obsessed fangirl"  That does have some truth, but I don't stalk my favorite boybands.  And even if I did live in the same vicinity as them, I don't think I would.  Anyway....so many of my thoughts are filled with my ever favorite person, Shim Changmin.  Ranging from school to intimate relations, almost all of my thoughts involve him.  If he is reading this, he may be a little uncomfortable with it.  :3 

It is funny how over a course of about a year and a month, I've become so attached to TVXQ and Changmin specifically.  He is the right height, we were both born exactly six months apart from each other, and of course he's Asian.  Why I prefer Asians...I don't even know myself.  But why do I love Changmin more than the other members?  Hmmm....well, Jaejoong has so many girls that like him, Yoochun is loved by my younger sister (they were born on the same day...four years apart), Junsu and Yunho....I don't know why.  But to tell you the truth, I did notice Jaejoong before Changmin, so I kinda liked him at first because I had seen the "Rising Sun" mv for the first time.  Eventually though, I started to fall for the baby of the group.  I can't remember when it happened, but it did.  ^_^ 

So with every interview, photoshoot, live performance, music video, tv appearance, and random acts of silliness I saw of TVXQ, I fell more and more in love with them.  When I saw the "Bonjour Paris" thing, I was wishing I was there.  And when I look at this photo:

 I wish I was there with him....Sometimes I have the thought of wanting to travel to Europe with him. (London calls!)  Maybe one day, we'll meet.  I also have this little thingy in my mind that portrays how I stand with Changmin.  First our backs our turned and we are blindfolded.  This means we didn't even know each other.  Then, I am facing your back unblindfolded while you still are.  This means that I have noticed you, but you still haven't noticed me.  Now we are both facing each other.  You are still blindfolded.  This means that (permitted I am actually talking to Changmin in MySpace) you and I are starting to get somewhere.  Now, I just wait for you to remove the blindfold to see me there.  :3  Interesting, ne?

Changmin...if we do meet, how far would our relationship go?  Am I just going through a phase?  Will I stop loving you when everyone else does?  How would I react if I learn something dark about you?  To be a hopeless romantic is quite sad.  I've never been in a relationship, so if I do get to be with you, it would probably be my first one.  :3  That is something I am looking forward too (even if it only exists in my dreams).  Christmas if fast approaching.  A time where people hook up and stuff.  What will you be doing on Christmas?  I wish we could do this:

But I am not Asian or white...I am black.  Even still, would you have me?  *I laugh at myself for asking*  Well, this is getting too long.  I wish I could just send you a letter of confession.  The bottom line--I really like you, but I cannot say "I love you" until you and I meet.  It is just weird to say it...even though I do say it sparatically (contradicting, ne?).  I don't want to be considered just another fan, but more of a friend and go from there.  Thanks to all who attempted to read this extremely long blog.  Peace out!