Just a few minutes ago, I had watched the CF of Yunho and Changmin's comeback. Initially, my reaction was: "Hn? What just happened? O.o" Fans were saying that they were so excited that they started crying, screaming, or jumping up and down. But I didn't get that excited about it. I don't know what it was, but I wasn't happy. Granted that I felt nothing when JYJ first began releasing things back in April, but it seems like my mood shifts alot. I don't want to say that I hate the members for it because I don't want to even go there. And, of course, I want to help support them all the best I can. It looks like I feel better towards JYJ because they've had it hard. But I don't want to be considered bitter towards HoMin either. Heck, my bias is on that side. And I know trhat it is their turn to do some singing because JYJ was up there in the first half of the year anyway. So why should I be like this? Like I said in previous entries, I truly think it has something to do with comments from fans. "For those who still believe in 5, stop it. Grow up and face reality. Go ahead and choose a side." is what it seems like most are saying. So, if TVXQ does come back as five again...what are you gonna do? How are you gonna act at that time? This is why I don't visit SM TOWN's homepage for TVXQ anymore. One fan even suggested replacing JYJ on there. *sigh* I guess the bottom line with me is that I need to stop reading fan's negativity and support them how I deem fit. But I have one question...is it okay to have a little dislike for them? I remember Yunho saying in one of their Banjun dramas that if you can find ten things that you dislike about a person, it actually makes for a better relationship. I think I am now coming to realize that there are maybe a few things about them (as well as other groups) that will irk me. Can any of you find things about your favorite groups that will irk you? I know that my bias, Changmin, also said that he doesn't want to be EVERYTHING to his fans. He wants them to live their lives but not make him the center of it. Now this is something that I see is really sweet, and I want to fulfill this. >:D
So, after reading this post...what kind of fan do you think I am? What kind do you think you are? Mature, childish, bitter...anti (o.O)? I'm hoping I've leaned more to a mature one. My mind is doing this number now --> @_@ so I shall stop. But I shall continue to make myself a better person and a better fan. Hopefully I didn't turn this into a pity party.
It seems as if we shared many of the same feelings today. :) I wasn`t excited either. Truth is, I think this is hard! And I think we should to be allowed to feel that way. To grow up, face reality and support your favourite - we`ve all been told to do that, right? But it seems to me a very simple solution that doesn`t take into account any of the many phases and sides to this matter. We found them - or they found us - we had them, we lost them, yet we didn`t lose them, now, we`ve got them back again, yet it feels as if we don`t have them at all...and in the midst of that turmoil, you expect me to make a clean-cut desicion such as cutting three (or, depending on the bias, two) persons out of my life and just be done with it? I can`t do that. Not because it would be painful - this already is painful - but because it`s just not possible. I think I can say this, that I love them all, and at the same time agree to what you say, namely that a few things about them are bothering you. I don`t think we have to agree to everything they say or do in order to be fans. They aren`t stupid, and I think they appreciate that their fans are trying to think, and then act upon their thoughts, as well. What kind of fan are you, ~Myndless~? ... the best. Because you are never indifferent. :)
ReplyDeleteI like your writings. I am sorry to add so much to them, there`s really no need to do that. Maybe I need to do some writing of my own back on my site. These are issues we can never quite conclude - but I think that`s a good thing.^^
Aw, thank you. ^_^ There are just some things that I'd really like to express, but I don't want to sound too harsh about it because I don't want to lose all the friendships and aquaintences I made once I began following them. And you are right, it would be weird if we all just chose a side and called it a day. Though my bias is stuck in SM (one thing I don't like, lol) I still need to support him and Yunho all while keeping an eye on Jaejoon, Yoochun, and Junsu. It may mean more money out of my pocket. But until the issue is resolved, I must do it. I just wish other fans would have the same thinking as us and take a chill pill. ^^; I would like to think that the members would be like: "Yes, support me...but don't forget about the others too~!" Thanks again for complimenting me for my writings. I also like your comment. It reflects what I feel many Cassies hope that other, more outspoken ones should read and feel.
ReplyDeleteThank you friend! ^^
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